Often

Often, I decide to be earlier than punctual but almost was just on the dot
Often, I try to be funny but end up cracking stupid jokes which nobody laughs
Often, it’s my turn to say something but no words come out from my mouth
Often, I decide to be alert to details but still end up being blur
Often, I told myself not to fear rejections but still end up bleeding inside
Often, I said I am ready to face challenges but I surrender before I overcome it
Pretty often, I need prayers =)