Battlefield

Our mind is like a battlefield.

You think you've got it figured out. You've learnt to see the imperfections as perfections. You think you're really fine with it.
Then when you proceed, it is not ok again.
More imperfections appear. More truth reveals.
Things you try to avoid, are popping out to you again. More.
You gotta learn the whole process again.
To accept the facts, the past, the imperfections.
You want to learn and overcome, because you don't want to be defeated.
You don't want to lose and surrender, because this is important to you.
But when will this come to an end?
Because to me, it seems like it'll never.
How long more can i stand?
At the back of my head, i hear "...I'm still standing.. but by the grace, but by the grace of God..."

God, your grace is sufficient for me.
Please allow me to learn and overcome this. Once and for all.
I don't want to dwell in the same problem, the same battle.
I want to grow, i want to finish this up and move forward.
Help me to step out of this battlefield. Give me rest. Rest in You.