Nah, take it, God.

I just needed to understand what is His reasons for not giving it to me, when he knows that that matters to me so much.

Yeah, someone told me, He is not giving to me, because i value it the most compared to other people. And He doesn't want to see me getting over-excited and take it as my own glory. Yeah... true... He knows i can handle it, He knows i like it, but He wants me to surrender for now. Until i learn to surrender, i would've build the right attitude.. when he gives, it will not hinder me from giving him all the glory.

It is hard to accept that, this won't come to me anytime soon if i don't learn to surrender it first. =(

So surrender... if i want to own that thing. Hehe. Surrender, nah, take it la, God. =)